What Is The Point?

What’s the point in trying at all? Absurd it is to take a fall. My mind aware of what’s to follow- Months of chit-chat, bleak and hollow. I tried in vain, I'm not enough. Too young, too old, too dark, too buff! No time to talk, to think, to hug, Now throw it in, the grave is dug. I know we feel no love, no hate And you are 20 minutes late. You talk, yet seem to gaze beyond; Go now, go seek that Love profound. This is my place within this world Long waits and angry words not hurled. And augury that I don't need, And  memory that wants no feed.                       I'm back, twas here that I began Checking my watch in early Jan. So What was the point in trying at alll? Absurd indeed to take a fall.